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Sex and ADHD: Part 1, Ranking my Obsessions!

June 23, 2012

Pretty much I accept that the cause of obesity from ADHD is direct. MRI studies show a decrease in dopamine in the brain for people with ADHD. Prescribed stimulants increase dopamine, but for those who never were treated or diagnosed with the disease, there are other ways to self medicate and increase dopamine levels. Sex, eating, taking risks, exercising or achieving goals all increase dopamine. Alcohol, cocaine, nicotine and other addictive substances have a remarkable ability to elevate levels of dopamine. Falling in love, buying lottery tickets, eating chocolate also increase dopamine. We get a much bigger blast of dopamine eating high-calorie foods than we do low-calorie foods.

If I had to rank my obsessions in order, my choices would be difficult because some obsessions seem to always be able to top other obsessions in my body and depending on  factors, some rise and fall on the list.  I have self medicated over a lifetime and have serious long term and short term obsessions. The only addiction that I really believe I encountered is cigarettes as there was no such concept as controlled usage which I believe I have mastered with food and alcohol. Since I quit smoking in 1984, I will rank my current obsessions in the order that they have guided my life and indulging in them gave me the ability to focus, preform well in society and control my ADHD without medication.

Family Love: I learned about the love of family from my mother. She had four children and was devoted to them. My father had his problems which he self medicated with Valium and Alcohol and did the best he could with family love but was simply not as active. 

Romantic love: My wife suffered a lifetime of depression but there was far more good than bad. When she occasionally made poor decisions, I deleted them from my official vision and lived with my perfect romantic image of her which was still true the majority of the time.

Sex: During some periods in our marriage, my wife would lose all interest in sex with me and rather than wander and cause disruptive problems, I suppressed my sexual desires while there were children in the house and focused on the love of my family and my image of our Romantic Love. The power of sex over everything below it on this list, was covered in my First Fat Savage blog which was obsessed in a crude way with losing weight because I was too obese to engage in sex and wanted that part of my life back.

Eating: This is the first of my obsessions which had a negative impact on my body, if I am allowed to ignore a few STD’s among close friends. Actually, it is this obsessive crutch which allowed me to get focused and organized and make a pretty decent living and be a pillar of my community for 40 years.  In my second Fat Savage Blog, which I have not yet organized for publication, I learned to control the timing of my meals and what I ate, in order to balance mid-range obesity  with my sexual performance, ability to do physical labor and mandatory office time. The next two obsessions can temporarily suppress my eating but I am lucky to find many goals or risks that obsessively possess me for any length of time.

Achieving Goals:  Every now and again, an almost impossible intellectual challenge comes into my life and I become obsessed with the solution. On the few occasions this occurred, the goal becomes more important than everything except family love, but once accomplished the goal was forgotten and there was no afterglow of success as there is with food, sex and my vision of romantic love.

Taking Risks:  Taking risks is low on the list because my family loves adventures and risk taking so these turn out to be great adventures where everybody has fun, socializes and gets their adrenalin flowing. The same is true of starting a business ,investing in the stock market and other financial risks which always get the family involved. There is no such thing as a solitary risk in our family.

Purpose driven manual labor (Goal Driven): This is on parity with Alcohol but occurs earlier in the day when I am programmed not to drink. The harder I work to finish a project in my house or yard, the more tired I am and the more likely to go to sleep and feel less of a need for alcohol.

Alcohol: My bottle of wine every night has elements of both social crutch and sedative. In terms of a sedative, I have never been able to beat the narcotic effect on my body after the first two glasses, and I don’t enjoy socializing and banal conversation without those two glasses. I have always recognized that when I drink a bottle of wine I will pass out within the hour and sleep soundly for the next eight to ten hours.  If I don’t drink a glass or two of wine at a party, i will go find something beautiful to stare at and ignore every living person at the party. If I drink the whole bottle and my wife was having a good time, I would find some place and go to sleep until she was ready to go. I don’t fight, argue, drive fast, chase women, have sex, say rude things or swear when drinking, I do that when sober.

Exercising: I really don’t like exercise where I have to go at fixed times to a gym or act like a hamster on a treadmill in a cage.  I would rather find something productive to do and go do it but since that is so low on my list of obsessions, it doesn’t make the cut very often. Still, when enraged in a situation with no answer, I find it easier to walk home six miles than to either drink or drive both of which I enjoy and which I do  not consider mutually exclusive. Finally, I developed “Walking with Wonder” and exercise is part of my new lifestyle.  Still, hardly an obsession.

Driving Fast Cars:  I have had a Toyota MR-2 which takes some skill to drive especially with big winds coming at you and potholes. I know for a fact it will start to go airborne where you lose all control at a combined speed and headwind speed of about 100 MPH especially if you hit  a bump or pot hole the wrong way. My fastest driving is during the day and after my two glasses of wine while socializing, I go home have a couple more and go to sleep. There is a thrill in being able to control a dangerous beast.

Eating Candy especially chocolate: I haven’t quit nor do I believe that I have been on my last binge. I still gain from one candy bar in some circumstances, but there is no benefit at all from binging, but what the hell, it’s an obsession.

Buying Lottery Tickets:  Playing the lottery is a fools game for the math challenged and at one level I know this. On occasion when I am poor, I get obsessed with spending my last $500 on tickets.  When challenged by friends and family, I point out that from Dante’s Inferno, the sign over the portal to hell is “Ye who enter here,give up all hope.” and in my mind, False hope is better than no hope. If you don’t play, you can’t win so you have no hope at all and you are living in hell. If I have quit, it will have been last week, probably because I have no more money.

Marijuana: Quit in 1971 the day my son was born without concern and have been around people who smoked ever since with no temptation. Contrary to most medical reports, I smoked because it kept me awake and allowed me to drink for a longer period of time in social gatherings without falling asleep.

Dangerous Obsessions that caused actual withdraw:

Nicotine: Quit in 1984, worthless addiction that when continued prevents the pain of withdrawal. Very serious withdrawal symptoms which lasted three to six months with several close calls to relapse and flashbacks for years.  I could only do it for love of my daughter.

Caffeine: Coffee in very small amounts had been my friend, however, too easy to increase the quantity in social gatherings and large amounts ruin my day.  Serious short term withdrawal symptoms for one week, with no flash backs. I quit for love of my mind.

I am amazed that Religion did not make the list of items that raise dopamine level because 50 years ago before being kicked out of church for heretical beliefs, I would have included it well above the middle, well maybe not higher than alcohol because I had started drinking a few years before and was discovering my limits at that time.


June 16, 2012

On my other blog, I have started watching my diet very carefully to see how my eating effects my ability to focus and my chronic back and body pain. I have more than enough energy to do all the physical activities that I want to do and I sleep well. The biggest things missing from my life are organization and focus. I can live with pain as I have mostly ignored it for the past twenty years regardless of weight between 265 and 165 pounds and my level of physical activity.

Coffee Pot Cooking

I decided this week when I went on my occasional detox for 2 weeks and 2 days to not only drop all wine but to completely modify my diet to see if I could reduce my aches and pains. I know I like what I eat and I have settled on a fairly healthy diet of whole grains, potatoes with the skins on, vegetables, fruits and fish and chicken. I also like spicy food. There is a cute tool over at Nutrition Data, which allows you to track, carbs protein, calories and the total Inflammation Factor for the days consumption.

Pretty much like most people, I eat what’s available and what I crave. I found my consumption of fruits and vegetables is fairly constant so my carbohydrate loading is 150 to 230 grams and I am not likely to change until next winter when fruit is less abundant. I…

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Does Obesity Affect School Performance? Is the Research Flawed?

June 15, 2012

A friend referred me to an article at CNN relating obesity to poor performance in school. In the pontificating on the relationship,  issues relating to food additives, diet, poverty and parenting are discussed. Of course every one of these is easy to blame, difficult to evaluate and almost impossible to cure.  Not one person in the article or comments  linked ADHD to obesity perhaps because many do not consider ADHD a real disease. 

Before I even begin to discuss the connection. I would like to point out that ADHD is a neurological condition that can be observed with an MRI. The brain is slightly deformed similar to blunt force trauma and there is a lack of activity in the frontal area. ADHD is recognized as a medical condition by the National Institutes of Health, the American Medical Association, the Centers for Disease Control, the World Health Organization, the American Psychiatric Association, the American Academy of Pediatrics and every other major professional medical, psychiatric and psychological association or organization.

The connection with obesity is extremely strong and from conjecture it is almost a direct symptom of adult ADHD.  What is know is that about 30 percent (27%-33%) of obese people have ADHD and the worse the obesity, the worse the percentage of ADHD. Perhaps as many as half of the people who are Morbidly Obese have ADHD.  This research has been emerging and published since about 2002 or for a decade. Now the exact number of treated and untreated adults with ADHD is difficult to measure but has been estimated by Medical Professionals to be as low as 4% or as high as 16%.

Let’s take a closer look at the data by starting with low estimates for both obesity and ADHD combined. If only 27% of Obese adults have ADHD and obese people (but not Morbidly Obese)  are only 33% of adults, than that means 9 percent of Adults have ADHD and are obese.  If only 3% are morbidly obese, and 40% have ADHD, thats another 1% with both diseases. Or a minimum of 10 % of the adult population who are have ADHD and are suffering from obesity. That means on the low side twices as many people are struggling with both ADHD and obesity then were believed to even have ADHD and there is no accounting of those who are overweight or those who beat the odds and maintain a normal weight.  If the numbers for ADHD are 33% and 50% respectively for both groups, then the minimum number of adult suffering from ADHD and Obesity rises to about 13% or almost equal to the highest estimates for adult ADHD and only works if mostof the adults with ADHD are actually obese or Morbidly Obese.

Simple question: Is it the obesity that cause poor school performance or the inability to focus because of ADD or ADHD?

Any experiment which ignores this direct link between obesity and ADHD must be considered to be flawed at best because if you can cure the ADHD, then you cure a third of the obesity cases in America overnight. Stimulants do not cure ADHD, they are used to control it.

In this post ADHD is used in the clinical sense to describe both ADD and ADHD.

Detox and My Anti-Inflamatory Diet

June 11, 2012

I am really not proud of Saturday’s food consumption. Particularly the wine. I could use the excuse that it was an unusual day with dinner with friends. But Sunday was another unusual day with a pool party at cocktail hour.  On Saturday, there is an obvious show of self medication with constant snacking, a huge diner and the wine consumption. 

Now on Sunday, I did not achieve intelligence, but there was a simple element of control. I loaded up on hot sauce for my fish and egg breakfast and added even more with dinner. The big effects was a feeling of fullness so less snacking and I dropped the inflammatory popcorn. I added spices too my food and most spices seemed to have anti inflammatory properties.  It is far easier for me to add spice than drop foods that I am comfortable with . (Maybe I’ll try popcorn with hot sauce.) By the way, my older granddaughter (12 years old) is a natural hot sauce fan as is my son in law and I am beginning to understand the connection. We all need to control our minds and bodies and anti inflammatory spices seem to be part of our personal programs of self medication. I ate less on Sunday, drank slightly less on Sunday and hope I weigh the same tomorrow. (I did.)

Well the last three days are constant at 175 pounds which is ten pounds over “normal” and not a bad place to be starting my detox of all alcohol for sixteen days starting Wednesday. The last time I did this was the first three weeks in April and I started at 180 pounds.  Obviously the weight I lose during the year is pretty permanent until the Holidays when the family gets together from December to March and in those three months I pick up 15 pounds.

During this detox period, I plan to focus on anti-inflammatory combinations of foods and see if I notice a difference over the next three weeks. I naturally like spices but get tired of eating the same meal over and over and am sometimes too lazy to enjoy any type of cooking other than grilling while having a glass of wine and listening to and watching the sea. For three weeks I can pretty much endure anything so I will be fairly diligent about sticking to my diet especially as I am now starting to redevelop my focus without picking up any negative side effects other than perhaps a little too much wine.

This is what I ate and drank over the weekend.

Saturday’s Food Consumption

Consumption                 calories    protein    inflammation

tea 2 cups green                 0                   0               12

peanuts 1.6 oz                  260                13               11

Moon Fruit     6                  90                 3

small cucumber                   8                    0                  0

eggs 2                               154                  12            -102

Mango (cup)                      107                   1              -15

Popcorn                             193                   6              -158

carrots                                  67                   2                270

garbanzos                           286                 12               -127

Steak 8 oz rib eye               484                 68                 17

Potato(smaller portion)        278                  7                -179

fruit salad cup plus               75                    1                -21

1 3/4 bottle wine                 1110                   0

Total                                    3112                125             -292

Target                             2000- 2200         60-175           50

Sunday’s Food Consumption

tea 2 cups                                0                       0                8

peanuts 1.6 oz                        260                   13               11

Moon Fruit 6                             90                     3

Mango (cup)                            107                     1               -15

garbanzos                                286                   12              -127

tilapia fish   (3 oz)                     144                   28                84

eggs 1                                        77                     6                -51

Hot Sauce 2 tsp                                                                     700

carrots                                        67                     2                 270

Potato(smaller portion)              278                    7                -179

Sour cream  2T                            54                    1                 -31

Chicken drumstick 2 pc              325                   36               -100

Hot sauce 2 tsp                                                                        700

1 1/2 btl. wine Merlot                   975                    0

Total                                            2740                 109             1555

Target                                     2000- 2200          60-175            50

BTW, the Inflammation Factor is a registered Trademark of and seems to provide some benefit so if I were them, I would defend my knowledge base against encroachment by suing anyone who doesn’t reference them.

The Original Fat savage

June 11, 2012

The Fat Savage Fishing and Drinking Beer

The Fat Savage Logo

Actually, the original blog under the “Fat Savage” title was started in 2006, and is now off-line. It was a very angry diet blog. My wife had created a fantastic business with 22 employes who were robbing her blind. of cash, time, hours and even parallel production for their friends and family.  In the midst of this she changed physiologists and the new one blamed me for her lifetime of depression. She also stopped mediating so she could continue smoking even though she  already had emphysema. After 40 years of marriage, our life together was on the edge.  She was no longer interested in sex and all I dreamed of was food, sex, alcohol and driving my sports car too fast.  I was 61 and still pretending that ADHD was a kids problem and a joke in adults.

Of course we were both wrong, and fortunately, we were both bright enough to understand that everything had to stop especially her screaming at me when she blacked out from oxygen deprivation and didn’t know what she was doing. When the kids got involved on both sides with a debate over who had failed the most, it became ugly and I told her it had to stop before the grandchildren got involved or I would divorce her and drag us both into financial ruin as her business really needed the both of us.

Through love, she regained control and our marriage survived. She became a little more discreet  with her smoking and I became a little more discrete with my girlfriend. We settled into a life of love for the next three years and the whole family healed from our very bad year and then she died and the business failed without her. I am not really ashamed about the rudeness of  that rather truthful blog describing the disgusting effects that obesity has on bodily functions including the ability to breath, control your bowls and even successfully make love;  I am just no longer angry enough to be that rude.

The most amazing thing is that I have recovered in all three areas and it is just the ability to control my mouth and focus on work that needs a little recovery. The top picture is the second one I used on my blog as I began to mellow a little after that angry year.  The first ones were  a bunch of naked pictures of me on my home page in my full glory between 250 pounds and 265. Naturally a diet motivated by anger and my lust for sex was not likely to succeed in the long run and it didn’t.

Beat the Fat Savage

My new picture is the “stamp out” symbol over my Fat Savage logo.  I am now ready to transform into a mellow Poppa John, if I can just resolve a few of the lingering ADHD symptoms.

Oh well, “It’s a goal!” 

The Autism & ADHD Diet

June 10, 2012

I’m having a little trouble with the clustering of ADHD and Autism as a family of diseases to be treated in the same manner. My problem with this as a scientist is if you keep seeking erroneous solutions to a problem you will never solve it. Some recent work on DNA suggested that there might be overlapping genetic abnormalities that link the two diereses and it didn’t really seem plausible to me. I have a lifetime of experience with ADHD and have also closely observed Autistic children. I decided to check the original work and found one of the quickest jumps from conjecture to conclusion that I have seen in years.

In a study of 248 children with ADHD there were 22 (or 9%) with a specific type of abnormal gene that matched an abnormal gene in a few Autistic Children. With 91% of the group, there was no relationship at all.

The same study included 348 Autistic Children and there were only 9 with the same Gene. That means that 97% of the Autistic Children had no genetic overlap with ADHD. If there is a genetic link, scientists better keep on looking because the reality is exactly the opposite of the results.

In an auditorium of 600 children, about 60 will have severe ADHD and perhaps another 30 will have a milder form of ADHD or perhaps ADD which is definitely a part of ADHD. Of those 90 children with ADHD only one will be Autistic. There will be one other autistic child in the room. Now my problem is that there is a cult following of the Autism and ADHD Diets being used as part of a treatment program for both diseases and there are many books and websites devoted to the topic without much scientific study. If the Diet really works for the 89 kids who have ADHD alone, there is no reason to believe it will work for the two autistic children but they probably won’t or can’t complain.

If the diet doesn’t work for all 89 of the ADHD children, they probably won’t complain but learn to cope the same way ADHD people have been coping for generations. The easiest choice would be to eat more, get fat or obese by eating more of what they are served and then get a calming effect that goes with the food obsession. They may also seek cigarettes, sex, love, alcohol and marijuana to increase their dopamine so they can get the focus they need to survive in school.

In high school and college I did everything on that list and the only thing that saved me was organized sports. I loved the adulation from being good and the exercise also increases dopamine. I could also eat everything in sight and not get fat because of the high energy burn in sports. You could also take risks with your body and get a real adrenalin rush.

When my daughter, who is somewhat normal, asked about how to handle her ADHD kids, she knew she came to the real family expert. I told her they needed lots of love including hugs and verbal praise. They needed to be physically active to a point others might consider it excessive. As to foods, feed the brain. Fish and almost anything they like in the way of protein, whole grains, fresh or gently cooked vegetables and just observe adverse reactions and eliminate. Lots of fresh fruits and raw vegetables like in salads. The oldest is 12 and doing excellent in sports and school with only occasional symptoms that someone might question. The younger girl has not yet fallen into a pattern and still bounces off walls. Only God knows the future on her treatment but we are hoping that we all find the path without medication.

At my house, I have an artificial rock wall that leads to the roof and is exited by a fire pole. There is also a real cliff with a repelling rope and a 70 foot zip slide across a gully. There are plenty of ways to take risks and feed their adrenaline needs. In the morning, I also walk them for a swim and back after an hour or two in the sea. The walk down and back is three miles. Mid day is quiet time with structured school work and no one complains about the break. About 4 pm, I drive them back to the pool for a swim while I have my glass or two of wine. I do this for about 3 weeks each summer and have for the past four years. There is rarely a meltdown because the loss is too great. A meltdown means they need more rest so they lose all privileges and are sent to bed for a two-hour nap. If they scream, I request that they do it louder as it is music to an old mans ears. They will never know I can’t stand it. So keep my secret.

I know that this is close to the way I was raised and it worked for me and seems to be working for my granddaughters and Son-in -law. I don’t have any idea if this will work for anyone else but there is a certain element of science in raising their dopamine levels in a natural way so they avoid uncontrolled risks and stimulants.

Focus is a Funny Word!

June 9, 2012

I need to focus right now on a new business that I hope will earn me a decent living. As of today, I am broke and “Land Poor.” I sort of intentionally invested in land on the Island of St. Croix which is where I live.  I have made a decent amount of money buying low and selling high and was unconcerned about my retirement funds as I would sell land as needed. I have no carrying costs as local land taxes are very low and all of the properties are paid for.  Then one of the largest refineries in the world shut down and destroyed the local economy. It is not that land prices have dropped, nothing is selling at any price so now I am temporarily broke. To solve my financial problems I have to focus which is a very funny word.

I mean focus describes a problem but to solve a problem you have to know the cause and in my case I have three cause that are impacting my ability to focus.

First, I have chronic pain but when I am really stoked, I can pretty much ignore it.

Next, today is the day I must pay bills but because I am broke, I am procrastinating instead of just doing it and moving on to planning my business. Since I will still be poor unless I win the lottery, I may as well take the time to go buy my lottery tickets.

Finely, my very active ADHD has kicked in since I lost 100 pounds and no longer use food to feed my brain. I use wine at night and it relaxes me but it puts me to sleep.  The other things which can increase dopamine other  than pescribed stimulnts make a petty dangerous list and I have done most of it except drink a lot of water or use cocaine.  Sex, eating, taking risks, exercising, achieving goals, or drinking water, all increase dopamine. Alcohol, cocaine, nicotine and other addictive substances have a remarkable ability to elevate levels of dopamine. Falling in love, buying lottery tickets, eating chocolate also increase dopamine. We get a much bigger blast of dopamine eating high-calorie foods than we do low-calorie foods. Ok so the only thing which might really help without a lot of dangerous side effects seems to be falling in love and regular sex.

When you are flat broke and can’t afford to take a woman on a date, finding someone who is half your age or less is a very improbable event.  I either lower my expectations or continue with fuzzy thinking.  Guess I’ll take a break and go buy some lottery tickets.

False Hope to solve my problems is better than no hope at all.

A Day of Focus

June 9, 2012

Today was a day of focus and I don’t know why. I dropped all candy, caffeine, coconuts, and beer over the past few weeks because of a lack of focus and last night suffered from the worse withdrawal and lack of focus for several days. It was my worst night since I started elimination testing. I have been religious on all four food items until yesterday when I had 2 daytime beers with a friend after hard manual labor. I slept poorly which I never do, woke up in cold sweats, and had terrible dreams where my mind was flooded with thousands of ideas at one time. I thought I was the “Improbability Drive for the Ship Traveling to the Restaurant at the End of the Universe.” I had blamed coffee and candy for my jitters, but the only thing I did different was the beer so that has to be an issue.  I will never say never again, but will be more careful to save that indulgence for when I don’t need to focus.

Of course this means that I want to test the harm from candy because I quit all four at the same time and like candy more than beer, coffee or coconuts! So much for non-professional elimination testing  of foods. and beverages.

The Fat Savage Transformation!

June 8, 2012

Hello World!!

Starting a new Journey!!

I am a Type A personality with Type O blood. I lived with obesity for 43 of my 67 years on earth. I lived with high blood pressure for 32 but only took medicine for about 8 years. I have had a lifetime of unmedicated ADHD and treated it myself with sex, drugs, food, exercise, alcohol, nicotine and the love of a perfect family.  Over the past three years, I have shed 101 pounds and kept 90 off. This has made the Attention Deficit Disorder portion of my ADHD worse.  I am now on a journey to learn to treat it with my diet and wine. I have good days and bad but am starting to understand that items that used to help me cope, ie beer, some foods and coffee, are now poisons to my mind.  I have learned to control the weight and learned to love exercise, I now have to learn to focus again after a lifetime of making good money in a variety of fields because of my ability to focus once my mind was saturated with dopamine from all my bad habits. I want to regain the focus without weird supplements, bad habits, foods or obesity. If Jesus Christ didn’t eat it I want to avoid it.